by joey

After two days that lovey went back to Indonesia, I finally got lovey's first text (though it was from okaa-sama's number lol). I received it a few minutes after I woke up and I can't wake up any better unless it was the real person whom I'll wake up beside to. I miss her. *smiles* Till then, *yawns* I need my nap. *grins*

Sent: 24-Feb-2009 / 07:25:59 Indonesian Time

Totoro

by rain

I seriously need a Totoro which can transport me back and forth to everywhere I please. Preferably a Totoro with the speed of concorde. I want to go to lovey's house. Because I can't sleep. Snuggle with lovey will surely be very comfy. I want to talk with lovey without YM or texts. I surely will need a Totoro. I want Totoro. Now.

My Valentine

by rain

Hihihihi...

Happy Valentine's day~! I'm really happy to celebrate my first "not-single" Valentine's day with lovey. I never really celebrate Valentine's day before, but this time I will celebrate happily with my dearest Joey. Let this Valentine's day be a piece of our big memories of being together, and let everyday becomes our Valentine's day~!

An Arrow

by joey

Happy Valentine's Day! *grins* Our first Valentine's day with someone special to share it with and I'm happy that it's with you.

Arashi!

by rain

Spending time with my lovey is sure enjoyable~! After get mild food poisoning on Monday, I have all the more reason to take things easy. Although I kinda missed watching Code Geass with lovey, and playing online Go too, I think I won't do that till the end of this week. The reason is quite lame: to prevent excessive stress, but at least there are plenty of other things to do, like hunting silly videos of Arashi in Youtube. Especially the stupidity of Aiba and over eccentricity of "leader" Ohno. I think being silly, overly lazy and 'baka' sometimes is not a bad thing *grins*

Vacation

by joey

After leaving CR, my internet world broadened and I'm finally learning about new sites and trying out different communities. I would have to say that I miss CR because of the people I know there and the easy navigation and overall site design. XD But the fact of the matter is, I'm enjoying my time together with my love and I am in no hurry to end it. This only means that CR will have to wait until I finally am ready to go back. *grins*

Just wanted to blabber here. XD Till next time. :)

Bond

by rain

This morning I checked my CR inbox because Miri left a message, an answer of my PM yesterday. I was quite surprised that she was not being talky as usual. It was a very mature answer and I was happy with that. She just said good luck and not being draggy by asking me to come back there. But Qiella didn't say anything. I kind of expected it actually. She did a very good job of being mature and being a support after such big blows in her life. But she is still very naive and sweet. Maybe in 3 or 4 days I'll contact Miri to ask if my little Setsuna is alright, if there is still no respond. My goodbye was a silent one, and indeed I didn't intend to make a big fuss. Only Miri and Qiella, after Joey, are the ones I'm worrying about there. Maybe I'll be back. Maybe not. But it's a later talk.
I don't want to play a hero this time. I admit doing all of this is because my selfish thoughts too. Who likes to be insane person who always get irritated and mad without any reason? So it goes, and I tried to cut off a source of my unexplainable acts lately. After that talk with my lovey, I snapped out of my dark thoughts. It was lack of trust from my side. For the whole my life, I've been trying so hard not to trust others easily because basically I'm a very naive person. And I saw examples of how naive people will be trampled over, tricked and burdening others... at least in my version. So I tried not to be. Even in a very small things, like group task for school. I always did all work, simply because I didn't trust that others can do better. I let my arrogancy and distrust leads my way for years. And before I realised, I hurt many people by doing that. I was really thankful that finally my lovey pointed that out. And I really want to learn about trust, the first time in my life, consciously, with my own choice. Probably... this is a way where I can love my lovey fully. And I want to do so because I love my lovey with all my imperfections and tiny love. Thank you lovey for broadening my vision. I will try to be a better person and better lover for you.